Nothing much

Well, it's been ages since I last wrote, not that anyone's reading. And it's not even like there's been anything major going on. Same old, same old. Life goes on, I meet friends etc etc. There is still no guy in my life. Not even a friend who is like nice or something. Just...nothing.

The other day I had a right moan with my friend about the fact that there's not a single guy in my life, the fact that I'm never going to have nothing when I'm old to look back at and be - wow, young love etc etc. And sometimes I do end up feeling a little empty. When my friends talk excitedly about some guy or when my best friend ends up getting together which some guy who she's liked forever, then I feel a little ehhhh. Normally I'm fine, but there come some times when I need someone to tell me it's going to be okay and I am going to eventually meet someone who I will then spend the rest of my life with. I know I sound like a sop, and honestly normally I think I'm managing well alone. But just once in a while I feel hideously unattractive and I was caught in such a moment. And so I kept on whining and she kept on being nice and a good friend. Unfortunately, later on I was chatting with the guy she likes - because she had wanted me to get to know him. And I was telling her what he had said - he had said something about how maybe we would see each other around, and she said something which implied we probably wouldn't. Which is contrary to what she said earlier when she said we would definitely meet. So I think I've convinced her that I'm a desperate loser.

Bye anyway.