10 more (11-20)

11. Turn to an entry in your journal or diary from a year or more ago. What has changed and what has stayed the same since then?
Around a year ago, I was having one of the best summers of my life. Just before going to college, I was enjoying one of the last free summers with friends I love and just relaxing completely and being pampered. There was also a fair amount of shopping. I'm not sure how much I've changed as a person. I know my accent has changed slightly and I feel like I've become a little more mature, a little more nagging, a little more childish (it might sound paradoxical but it's not) and some other things, but I haven't changed as much. I've probably become a little more liberal in my views and a little more feminist too, but I don't notice these things unless I realize I used to have a different opinion on something.

12. What is one thing nobody knows about you because nobody ever cared to ask?
A decent amount of things, but not things that people normally ask about. There's some things people don't know that they've asked about, I just haven't told them. Sometimes I feel like I don't tell people things and that's why they don't ask, but I kind of just realized they do ask and I don't really share but sometimes I do!

13. Robert Frost write a poem titled The Road Not Taken. Name a road you’ve always wanted to travel. Where do you hope it takes you, and what might you see on the way?
Actually telling someone about my feelings when I feel them. It might lead to awkwardness and there might be a lot of good reasons not to tell them, but it prevents lots of 'what-might-have-beens' and unfulfilled or unfinished infatuations. It could lead at worst, to closed doors but at least knowing what happened, or at best to an actual relationship, full of the usual rollercoaster of emotions that brings (although I wouldn't know about that).

14. Name one thing you always wanted to do, but haven’t. What has prevented you from doing it?
Probably the same as above. I think it's always been that our friendship would be ruined or I'd be rejected if I did tell or more importantly that other people would talk about me and I'd know they'd been doing so.

15. Write about your first kiss. Was it everything you wished or hoped it would be?
Clearly, if you've read this blog you'd know I haven't had one. I have a feeling that I'm building up my expectations and it'll just be normal and nice, but that's honestly all I think I need. As long as I have butterflies, I'll be happy. :)

16. What was the worst mistake or decision you have ever made in life? What could you have done differently?
I haven't made any decisions that are irreversible or I'd call 'the WORST', but regrets include those discussed in questions 14 and 15, as well as not working as hard as I could have for school exams and stuff (though this was usually fixable). I try not to regret things, and I succeed at doing this except with romantic things.

17. What song was stuck in your head recently, and what were you doing at the time that made you think of it?
There's actually this song called 'Fools in Love' that was playing when S told me he liked our mutual friend. Though he's over that now and more into this other girl (who was actually the girl I knew very little about who he was interested in before our mutual friend and who I actually see more of now), it just reminds me of my whole mess of a situation whenever it plays on shuffle. It's kind of amusing that whenever he complains about how absurd his life is with his past and present interests meeting, I'm just more tickled by the fact that I'm present or listening to these stories.

18. Describe 5 things you want to see or do before it’s too late.
I'm not honestly much into the whole seeing places thing, but I'm going to go with places anyway. I've talked enough about personal things that I wish I did and plan to do. But I'd say there's actually a lot of places I wouldn't mind seeing with friends/ love interests. I figured out that I have pretty expensive tastes, and I'm penny-wise and pound-foolish. Oh dear.
- Orlando (Universal Studios and Disneyland)
- Italy (probably Venice)
- Kenya (safaris, probably safe and luxurious ones - I'm not much of an outdoors person)
- India (all the diverse beautiful parts, not just the typical spots)
- One of those secluded classy gorgeous beach resorts ANYWHERE

19. Write about something you now know that you wish you knew earlier in life. How could this knowledge have helped you?
Develop and stick with hobbies and passions so you won't be a beginner at everything later on.

20. Write about your greatest fear.
I just realized that it's probably knowing that people are talking about me, and not necessarily in a complimentary way. Probably stems for the whole 'not having friends for a couple of months' when I first joined my high school. But this leads to a lot of other small things, like being pretty self-contained and worrying and not telling people things and being reluctant to appear vulnerable in front of others. Here's a genuine insight that these questions and this blog helped me with! I've never actually put these pieces together.