Anticipating greatness

He's visiting tomorrow for a week. Naturally, I got my period today.

I suppose it isn't the worst it could have been, since I'm not in too much pain yet and it'll hopefully be done Wednesday (and I'm going to go work out today to ensure that is the case), and I'll still go get waxed tomorrow come hell or high water - but obviously not bikini waxed.

I'm excited. Things have been good lately. Minor things have come up, but I think overall our communication has improved and I've gotten better at dealing with things. I still have the challenge of feeling like things are awful in the moment when we're in conflict and questioning everything, but I do that with all my relationships and am continuing to work on and recognize that.

My friends are excited as usual to meet him. I am excited to be near him and also pretty nervous about everything. What if things end up being really weird close-distance? What if we can't stand each other in person? Or if we get bored of each other? What if we end up hating or hurting each other or both? What if his little habits that annoy me end up driving me insane? And if our personalities are just too different to be together? What if his two sets of friends hate me (for different reasons)? Or his family? What if he never introduces me to them? What if money becomes an issue? Seeing each other once I start working full-time? What if I worry too much and never enjoy the moment or appreciate him for what he is?

When I'm smart, I realize I don't need to worry about these things and that it will be fine/ work out. And even if it doesn't, I'll be strong enough to deal with that as it comes, and be better for the experience. I'm rarely smart, but I do have smart friends to help me along.

Another short update. What are we coming to?