No Wizard that there is or was, is gonna bring me down!

Despite the cheery title of the post, there's some angst-ish stuff to come. Avert your eyes, imaginary readers who've heard enough whining already. Even though I'm more than a teen, I'm still partly a teen, and the angst is part of the package.

So...college. I've made about three or four close friends (girls, obviously - I think I'm just more easy and relaxed with them), so it's not like everything is going badly. But there's still the distance, no matter what - we're not that close yet. And despite my dreams of coming to college and finding a boyfriend, there seems to be no likelihood of that happening yet.

It's not like we haven't been in college long enough, there's girls (and guys and couples) who are already in the throes of love. Or at least they're close, and a lot of love comes from friendship. I have no close friends who are guys. It's still better than it was at school: here I'm at least on a "waving/ smiling hi" basis at more guys, and am much more casual and friendly.

I went to a frat party (actually two) yesterday, and was hit on by like four guys. I don't mean to show off here (at least not completely) so I will explain that I mean that it's not like I couldn't hook up or make out if I wanted to. Clearly, though, these guys aren't interested in my personality. One somewhat friend from my floor asked if I wanted to dance, and I made sure to clarify "as friends" before awkwardly dancing in front of him before moving away in like two minutes. I still cringe when I think of the memory, but at least I know there's potential.

Anyway, the friends situation is going okay. People aren't really replying to my texts, or being especially proactive in inviting me out (apart from those close friends), which can be a bit lonely.

Also, I'm getting a bit worried about my constant procrastination at work. I literally wasted my time from 12 noon today, to 1 am at night. Wtf?! And I have a math midterm tomorrow. Maybe I need the shock?