Here it goes again

Well then, it's probably impressive how long it's been since I've last written. Don't assume this means that my life has suddenly become a lot more interesting in the meantime, or that I've engaged in some torrid affair and forgotten about measly little blogs.

My life has been much the same. Except I am now in my last year of college. What/ when/ how did this happen and can I make it stop? I'm going through the job search process, and it's a lot less fruitful than I assumed it would be. It's really hard to not take it personally and wonder exactly what I did wrong (particularly when the company I interned with two years ago didn't even offer me an interview this time around).

And it seems like consulting might be the right career for me? Particularly if I get to travel and earn well and learn all about different industries and not decide what I need to do with my life yet. I know I'm not necessarily being boxed into a career for the rest of my life, but it certainly feels a little worryingly like I might be (if I don't get consulting). And it seems like I might not get it.

At the same time, I keep getting these little voices in the back of my head that wonder if I want to take some time off, if I'm ready to enter the working world, if this is really what I want to do?

Now I have had a lot of wine and have been sharing stories with the new roommates. I have mostly been asking questions and not answering them, but they haven't asked. And most of the time I like asking questions as well.

I like my new roommates a lot. I feel like the essential chemistry is there and all that is maybe left is for the honeymoon phase to pass? And I'm not even sure that it will. I feel as though I have learned a lot about their lives in the way that I've always wanted to know about people.

Those last two paragraphs were written drunk and make even less sense given the context and seriousness of the previous discussion, but I decided to leave them there because that's how I think.

I'm just going to go ahead and publish this now. There's so much more to say but if I don't get started with posting again, I'm never going to.

So I'll leave you (future me) with this tantalizing hint: there's a new boy in my life. And I've been through a lot of firsts. But don't get too hopeful, that doesn't actually lead anywhere particularly productive.